Day 89

Holding steady.  I did better with my eating today.  I still want to eat things I shouldn't have.  Maybe it's boredom.
Linda

Day 88

I seem to be stuck again.  I also seem to be having a hard time eating on my plan lately.  Mostly I have eaten things that were allowed, but more than I should to effectively loose weight.  I am having the roughest cycle of my diet to date.  I WANT TO EAT STUFF!

I am forgetting my basic rules from the beginning, plan, plan, and when all else fails...plan!  I need to have things that are easy to prepare and plan my meals.  I am grazing.  Geoff is not home in the evenings and as a result I am not cooking a family meal in the evenings.  It throws off my eating because dinner is the most satisfying meal for me.  I end up wanting something good, but not wanting to go to all the trouble to prepare it for myself alone.  Charlene won't eat anything I cook lately anyway.  So I end up grazing unsatisfied all evening.



Help~!



Goodnight.

Linda

Day 81

Really nothing to post today.  I had the day off  from work. Slept until almost noon, and was lazy all day.

Linda

Day 80

I got my first charm from Tops tonight.  We get a charm for each 10 lbs loss and I've lost 14 since I started going to the meetings.  It made me happy.  I also got a certificate for perfect attendance and a ribbon for walking.  YEA!

I was down 1.8 lbs from the last meeting I went to which was 2 weeks ago. In all since I started my diet, I am down 24 lbs.  My pants are getting too big, even my jeans at this point and this last week I wore clothes I have not been able to wear in quite a while.

Breakfast- cereal

Lunch - Veggie burger on whole grain sandwich round

Dinner- 3/4 cup spahgetti with meat sauce
             Broccoli


Snacks - serving of almonds
              slim fast 100 cal snack

Day 79

It was a much better day today.  Geoff, Charlene and I spent some family time together and it was nice. 
I am retaining water again :P  I know because my feet are swelled again.  My feet have not hurt for 2 weeks and today they are hurting again.  Yeah.

Back to work tomorrow.  I'm looking forward to seeing everyone.

Linda

Day 78

Okay, today is a new day, and I have a new challenge.  My resolve has been great so far with my eating,  I am  going to apply the same resolve to staying off Facebook.  If  I can control my eating, staying off facebook should be a breeze!  I have cancelled both of my accounts and I plan to not re-open either of them.  While Facebook is a good way to communicate, it can also be a destructive force that I will not give energy to.

I have done okay with my eating today, although I did eat Italian tonight.  I ate a few rolls about the size of a ping pong ball and salad mostly.  I only ate about 3/4 of a cup of my pasta.  Other than that I have had a few purnes, a bowl of cereal, and a about 1/2 cup of frozen yogurt.

Wish me success in my new challege!

Linda

Day 77

I am still here, and I must NOT be an emotional eater anymore.  Today has been a day.  It should have been a nice family day. That didn't work out. But with all the "stuff" going on in the house, I did a good job of eating on my plan.  Don't get me wrong, I would LOVE a big piece of cake right now but if it was in front of me, I don't think I would eat it.  Looks like it may be a long weekend.  I may find something to do away from home tomorrow.  I wish I could go to my Mom's, that option is off the table.  Maybe my relationship with my mom was selfish.  I seem to miss her the most when I need her to make me feel loved.  And she did love me.

I guess I'm having an emotional night. I feel like I spend most of my time trying to make the people around me happy.  I guess I just want someone to give a little back or a least say they noticed.  Instead they ask for more or say I did nothing. I totally don't get it.  And now this is turning into something I never intended, so I will stop there.   This is relevant in that I used to eat something to self sooth or reward myself.  I don't have that option anymore either.  So here I sit on the stupid damn computer which I have come to hate, moaning and complaining about my life.  And I have a pretty nice life, all things considered.

Linda

Day 76

I am now at 24 lbs down!  I'm happy, happy, joy, joy. 

Day 73

If you would please note the last post was actually posted after midnight so it looks like it was posted on Day73, but no.  This is day 73.  Not much to post diet wise. 

Charlene and I spent the day painting her room.  She is thrilled to have a room that is "hers".  I think she has always felt like her room really belonged to Carly Pooh.  She has painted 3 walls black and one white and will splatter neon colors on the wall.  Of course she also wants a black light, groovy huh?  LOL, she doesn't know black lights are groovy. She would die!!  Anyway, we had a good day.  Tomorrow we will finish up the painting and build her dresser.

I had a new low weight this morning, but we'll see what happens tomorrow.  I have learned not to get too excited the first time I see a new weight.  Sometimes it takes a few days to claim the pound.  It puts me to a total loss of 23 lbs! 

Breakfast- Whole grain bagle with 2 tbls. cream cheese

Lunch- Salad and one piece of toast

Dinner- Mexican= a few chips and salsa, tostada and enchilada with shredded beef, rice, beans.

Snack- flan

Yummy dinner!

Linda

Day 72

Routine is a good place to be.  I'm getting used to this sticking at one weight for weeks at the time and then having a drop.  It's weird, but I guess I'm figuring that my eating plan is working.  I'm keeping track of my calories and not worrying so much about the scales theses days.  I would like for my weight loss to be consistant and faster, but I am averaging 2 lbs a week which is very good.  I'll  take that.  I feel better and I am more comfortable in my clothes at this point. 

I noticed that I don't seem to "want" to eat like I did before.  I ate mindlessly and so much more than I would have thought I was eating. I try to be aware of what I am eating and my choices are completely different than before.  I used to think a salad had to be a side dish.  Now I find I can eat a good salad and I am satisfied.  I don't get hungry between meals.  Sometimes I want to snack, but it's not a burden and it is under control.

I am happy with my current state of being as far as my eating habits and I am sure I will not revert back to my old eating habits while I am in my current state of mind.

Breakfast- Prunes

Lunch= Hamburger on sandwich round

Snack-Asian mix (1/2 cup = 90 cal)
           Frozen yogurt (7oz = 280 cal)

Dinner- Salad and one piece of whole wheat toast

Linda

Day 71

Okay, I am off work for a week now.  The key to staying home for a week and not gaining weight or snacking too much is to plan.  I am on top of it!  Geoff and I went to the grocery store today and I bought stuff for sandwiches, soup and salads.  I should be okay.

I have a pot of veggie soup cooking on the stove now.  This time I put fresh green beans and stew beef in it.  I know chicken is better, but I'm in the mood for beef and I haven't had any for awhile.  I hope it will be better than the last batch I made, which I fed to the dogs!  LOL.  I'm not kidding.  The green beans tasted like grass, and I didn't have enough tomatoes in it.  I also used field peas.  I won't do that again. It was terrible.

Geoff wanted to eat lunch at Provino's.  I said no!!! and we went to Atlanta Bread Co. and I ate a salad.  I'm so proud of myself. I've been wanting Provino's lately so bad, and yet I made the right decision.

Holding steady. I'm prolly going to be stuck again as usual.

Breakfast - cereal
                  purnes


Lunch- Salad

Dinner- cooking soup!

Snacks- Skinny Cow Ice Cream Sandwich, 9 or so almonds, 1 piece toast with peanut butter


It's only 5:30 if I eat more I'll post it.

Linda
             

Day 70

Holding steady.  I've been sick this week with a bad cold and sinus stuff so I haven't been moving around too much. I've been pretty zonked out on the sofa.  My eating has sort of been whatever was easy at the time. So this week I am pretty much hoping to stay the same and not gain anything.

I went back to work today after being out for 2 days.

Breakfast-  really lunch as I slept until noon  2 pieces of toast with peanut butter ( I'm hooked on it)

Lunch- turkey sandwich

Dinner- cottage cheese w/pineapple