I am still here, and I must NOT be an emotional eater anymore. Today has been a day. It should have been a nice family day. That didn't work out. But with all the "stuff" going on in the house, I did a good job of eating on my plan. Don't get me wrong, I would LOVE a big piece of cake right now but if it was in front of me, I don't think I would eat it. Looks like it may be a long weekend. I may find something to do away from home tomorrow. I wish I could go to my Mom's, that option is off the table. Maybe my relationship with my mom was selfish. I seem to miss her the most when I need her to make me feel loved. And she did love me.
I guess I'm having an emotional night. I feel like I spend most of my time trying to make the people around me happy. I guess I just want someone to give a little back or a least say they noticed. Instead they ask for more or say I did nothing. I totally don't get it. And now this is turning into something I never intended, so I will stop there. This is relevant in that I used to eat something to self sooth or reward myself. I don't have that option anymore either. So here I sit on the stupid damn computer which I have come to hate, moaning and complaining about my life. And I have a pretty nice life, all things considered.
Linda
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